After i have MIA for so long, i'm gonna update my blog. this is so sucky, i'm totally drained out and i dun have e time to update everyday.. i wish i cld though. anw, here it goes...


Work has been really nice. i've jus learnt to fold e stalk type of rose.. so basically alot of pretty girls sitting in my area have received them.. hehe. Behind DJ is now considered mine. tts so cool, right? cos i've been taking tt area for awhile and i really like it there.. so many things have happened recently. wtf.. e most embarrassing thing is getting hugged by an ahkua on wed, getting kissed by her (on e cheek) on thur and seeing her again on fri!! can't believe my "luck"... shiit man. den my station i/c kept disturbing me abt it.. crap. hope i dun ever see "her" again..


On otc wise, i haven't been gg for e past 2 weeks. honestly, i thought it won't affect me much.. but e ban has really gotten to me. at first my main purpose of gg to otc was to help my corp. now tt i've been banned, i really dun see e need to. frankly speaking, i've lost my motivation to go to otc.. somebody save me! i'm really lost and stuck.. haiss.. where's all my strife and confidence gone to? when i said i wld pass out this year... shiit. i hate my life...


Today was e stj zone 1 competition.. seeing all e teams brings back wonderful memories of training tgt wit chubb and e rest of e group. although my girls got 4th out of 7 teams.. i'm still awfully proud of them! this is e first time we loose and yet my head is still held up high. bcos i know how hard they hav trained. all e effort they hav put in.. they hav no prev comp experience, and even less footdrill or first aid knowledge.. e very basic at most. and yet they were able to come this far... i hope they wld join again next year and hopefully grab a trophy!! although i won't be seeing all of u anymore, i pray u all work hard. i really hope tt u ppl wld be e group tt change bgss stj history. all e best!! after e comp we went to marina south for steamboat.. ate so much, i think i'm abt to blow.. but e instructor side was quite quiet. i guess everyone's jus damn tired and shag. finally it's all over... but, we're alr planning for next year..


Sorry sand.. somehow when i saw her face at e treasure hunt event my heart jus melted. sweet and sour combined. why is this happening to me?.. can someone give me an answer?.. i thought i've truly let her go. or was i jus lying to myself?.. help! i really can't totally forget her. i'm not being fair to sand. so sorry.. :/ But, do u know i still care?.. i seriously still do. e question i hav now is "why"? urgh.. somebody! anybody!! pls help me if u're reading this.. at this point i wonder if u've seen my blog yet. haiss..


"How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone." - Coco Chanel