I finally have e time to blog again.. woots!! i passed my AFA. feels like a huge burden off my shoulders. well at least i'll be a SSGT if i can't be an officer. maybe if Dennis Chua is chairman or vice-chairman next year i'll try again.. otherwise, maybe not.. his system sounds better. but kept getting bullied by him la. not fair not fair!!


Oh yeah.. last week got to see her again. really brings back memories, lots and lots of them.. i guess u can call it bittersweet. cos i'm both happy and sad to see her again.. so decided to sit down and start making wad i've been planning since her birthday.. actually i wanted to get her 99 roses, but she said that it's not practical cos it'll all die in e end. so i thought abt it for a long time and decided tt folded roses wld stay forever.. so i folded 99 pink roses. there was also a bear with it.. a stuffed toy which said "Glenn Love Michelle". den had to wrap and decorate it.. all within a week. i think it's a bloody great achievement.


Tt's not e bad part.. ended up getting sabo-ed by my "FRIENDS" to give it to her in front of everyone after e AFA exam.. including tt Dennis Chua!! geez, i'm still pretty confused right now. cos i thought i totally forgot abt her. hmm, i thought.. maybe deep down in my heart she still means somthing to me. cos sometimes i feel tt nobody else can replace e emptiness tt she had left behind. but i doubt we'll have e happy ending. cos it's only on my side once again.. maybe she won't even treasure e present?.. i dunno, and i dun wanna know. girl..? if u're reading this, jus hope u know tt i still care okie? sorry tt i had to embarrass u in front of everyone..


By e end of e week my fingers were swollen cos it's hard to fold e roses.. but to me, it's all worth it. haiss.. but what's lost can't be taken back, for it truly is lost forever. i can never turn back time. but even if i could, i would rather take e same path again, though i know i may still get hurt in e end. looking forward to seeing her again.. lots of love. pls take care of yourself.. *huggs*


Mike.. maybe u're right, sometimes i do regret e path i have chosen.. and i dunno whether there is any turning back this time round. maybe i still have to experience all of this myself and learn e hard way to find out.. but thanks for all e advice, u'll always be a close friend of mine.. guess we do have many things in common. u take care too!! hope ur ankle is well cos i really hate seeing u so inactive. i miss e active mike who runs abt..


Thanks to everyone who had been concerned or even cared abt me.. thanks to those of u who have been there in my time of needs. but this battle i will have to fight alone, as it is something internal.. something within me. wish me luck.. and may i gain victory over myself. tis Fated..



"Lost, yesterday, somewhere between sunrise and sunset, two golden hours, each set with sixty diamond minutes. No reward is offered, for they are gone forever. - Horrace Mann"