Somehow looking back at my past entries, it's either anger or sadness. hmm, i wonder.. does my world only revolve around these 2 emotions? is this what makes me tick after all..

Chubb has always been asking me to go back to sjab. it's not that i don't want to. i don't really see the point in doing so. everyone's getting along fine. there isn't a need for me to worry.

And since zone chooses this path, i shall not go against them. likewise, i find no reason to go beg them to allow me to return. it's not entirely my fault that i had to OOC.

If they choose to put the blame on me, i shall only keep mum and accept it. anyway, it's not like there is anything much i can do. life is such, no?

And maybe i have decided after all. i ain't going back anymore.. we live in 2 different worlds. one of light, and one of darkness. and no one understands that.

Since i have chosen, i shall stick to my decision. whether i would regret or not, i don't want to know. this is my world.. i shall remain here. and you have yours to return to.

Sorry guys. i never regretted knowing you people. through all the camps we had, all the meals we had, and most importantly all the fun we had. we bonded...

But even super-glue unsticks overtime. and this is one of those times. thanks for everything. i've really enjoyed all the times we've spent together.

And, no, i'm not attending NCO camp this year. maybe never again..


"I, who walk the night, can no longer step into the day.."