I wonder what's going on sometimes. why people make the decisions they do. why some things don't ever turn out right. should we forget the past and put it behind us?

Why should i? or rather, why not? argh. i really don't know. we were brothers before, right..

Hmm, her birthday is coming. approaching really soon. wonder what if i should get a present for her? because i've been instructed not to.. by The Greatness of course. boy wonders why?

Well, i think i'm probably gonna get one anyway. whether she strangles me or not. she's still someone special to me after all..

Work is tiring, as usual. i'm inside cave 1 of Member's now. away from the people that i hold dear to me, that i'll do anything for. the reason to put in the extra effort.

Seems like i lost quite a bit of my motivation to work. guess i just got to live with it. it's about time i know the other members too. more is expected of a Full-timer, maybe too much. =/

Spent some time with Roland and the rest tonight. just sit and chit chat. glad to see that Roland has matured since he came back from USA.

Gonna go drinking really soon. i'm gonna make sure i'll be dead-drunk by the end of it. there are some things i'll rather just forget. even if it means for a short while.

Just remembered a quote Yas used to have on her friendster, i believe it's still there..

I miss you.


"I wanna find the imperfect person to be the most perfect person for me."